The Mindless River

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We are two mariners
Our ships’ sole survivors
In this belly of a whale

Its ribs are ceiling beams
Its guts are carpeting
I guess we have some time to kill

You may not remember me
I was a child of three
And you, a lad of eighteen

But I remember you
And I will relate to you
How our histories enterweave

At the time you were
A rake and a roustabout
Spending all your money
On the whores and hounds
Oh Ohhhhh

You had a charming air
All cheap and debonair
My widowed mother found so sweet

And so she took you in
Her sheets still warm with him
Now filled with filth and foul disease

As time wore on you proved
A debt-ridden drunken mess
Leaving my mother
A poor consumptive wretch
Oh Ohhhhh

And then you disappeared
Your gambling arrears
The only thing you left behind

And then the magistrate
Reclaimed our small estate
And my poor mother lost her mind

Then one day in spring
My dear sweet mother died
But before she did
I took her hand as she dying cried:
Oh Ohhhhh

“Find him, bind him
Tie him to a pole and break
His fingers to splinters
Drag him to a hole until he
Wakes up naked
Clawing at the ceiling
Of his grave
*sigh*”

It took me fifteen years
To swallow all my tears
Among the urchins in the street

Until a priory
Took pity and hired me
To keep their vestry nice and neat

But never once in the employ
Of these holy men
Did I ever once turn my mind
From the thought of revenge
Oh Ohhhhh

One night I overheard
The Prior exchanging words
With a penitent whaler from the sea

The captain of his ship
Who matched you toe to tip
Was known for wanton cruelty

The following day
I shipped to sea
With a privateer

And in the whistle
Of the wind
I could almost hear…
Oh Ohhhhh

“Find him, bind him
Tie him to a pole and break
His fingers to splinters
Drag him to a hole until he
Wakes up naked
Clawing at the ceiling
Of his grave

“There is one thing I must say to you
As you sail across the sea
Always, your mother will watch over you
As you avenge this wicked deed”

And then that fateful night
We had you in our sight
After twenty months at sea

Your starboard flank abeam
I was getting my muskets clean
When came this rumbling from beneath

The ocean shook
The sky went black
And the captain quailed

And before us grew
The angry jaws
Of a giant whale

Don’t know how I survived
The crew all was chewed alive
I must have slipped between his teeth

But, O! What providence!
What divine intelligence!
That you should survive
As well as me

It gives my heart
Great joy
To see your eyes fill with fear

So lean in close
And I will whisper
The last words you’ll hear
Ohh Ohhhhh

-The Decemberists

A Lover’s Lover.

I laid there next to him today. He breathed me in and absorbed every element in the room as if it were his first time breathing and experiencing life. He broke the shell off me. What lied in front of him was a raw version of who I am. He looked me in the eyes. He attended to every part of me that hurt. I tried convincing myself that I existed in that moment he was giving me. But even at that moment, closing my eyes was not enough to escape. He saw the tears before they became tears. He saw the pain before he asked about it. When I stared back into his eyes, he saw only a limp body before him and he knew why. He broke the silence and asked, “Do you miss him that much?” How he knew, I don’t know. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.” — “He must have been a great guy”, and from there, he held me closer. “Have you ever had a girl change your life”, I asked. “Yes.” — “Did you love her?” — “It’s a bit more complicated than that.” — “What happened?” — “I left.”

At that moment, I realized what we are. We are not in love but we are. We are lovers that belong to other people. At that moment, I realized how much I missed him and how much I still love him. I know the chance I lost after I left. I can acknowledge the emptiness I feel when I walk and stare at the sky. He feels it too. He’s right next to me and he feels for the girl he lost. I never live with regrets but now, at this very moment, I know what it feels like to have something torn out of my heart as a consequence to my actions. I love him so much. 

Freedom Noose.

There stands a little bird

In a cage that use to be;

Where bars are gone from view

and he imagines to be free.

He takes a leap into the air

To fly over his dreams

Almost to the glorious light

Things beautiful as they seem;

To find true love and magic things

After such a grueling time.

But instead of finding working wings,

Interrupted was his flight.

Though owned and loved without a cage

Stood a taller bird strong and new.

It flew round and round with rage

And he was taunted by his noose. 

There he hung, he hung, he hung.

Til’ daylight disappeared.

And then t’was cut away

Only then he truly feared.

DEAR PEOPLE OF THE WORLD

I would like to die alone now. Thanks. 

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put a shirt on..

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